Tuesday, June 28, 2011
I've been in a rut lately. Looking at myself in an unflattering light, focusing on my flaws. I won't enumerate, but suffice it to say I am feeling down on me. I try to hide my feelings from others, my husband, friends, family, and especially Annabelle. I hope she never feels like I do, even though I know almost everyone feels like this sometimes right? I am determined to get myself back on track, for me. I'm always thinking that I'm working on myself for other people, to look better for someones party, so that Annabelle won't pick up on my self hatred, so that my husband will think I'm beautiful. I want ME to think I'm beautiful. So I'm going to work on that. On me.